I hate when people tell me its your choice to feel negative it’s your choice to LOOK ON THE FUCKING BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE,be positive and HAPPY yes be happy and GO OUT AND DO THINGS IT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER, All  of that is complete crap  and absolutely horrible to say to someone who has suicidal depression, You know to be perfectly honest I don’t like feeling happy anymore and NO I DONT WANT TO BE BRIGHT POSITIVE AND CHEERY I’d rather just rot away